Seriously, what’s so great about having Malaysia day as another day of public holiday?

Does a Malaysia day public holiday makes Sarawakian and Sabahan more “Malaysian”? I don’t know, maybe Merdeka Poll Center should add in this question as a poll question.

Does this mean, if one day the government declare “National man day” as public holiday, then male Malaysian should be grateful happy and as such vote for the government? Similarly does that mean if we have public holiday for woman, gays, elderly, disabled and etc, then all those discrimination issues will fix itself?

To me, there’s no use to “celebrate” a certain day if we don’t even respect or achieve the meaning of that certain day… Yeah, independence day, it is safe to say that most Malaysians, especially the youngs, treat it as another public holiday… What’s so great about merdeka? We achieved our independence, just to get fucked by our own people, the retarded elitist so-called leaders. Did we get to be a “democratic” country that found on the principle of “liberty and justice”, what’s with our forefather’s vision, declared at 31st August 1957?

So what’s so great about “recognizing” the independence day of Sarawak and Sabah? So that the federal government can continue ignoring the poverty and social issues in these 2 states? So that the great nature environment of the states can continue be plundered exploited and eradicated?

What “the government taken the right steps”? Make Sarawak and Sabah really part of our country before you declare Malaysia day a day to celebrate… that’s what I called right steps…

Suppose to have a lot of stuff to write… but decided to just write some random points here, guess this is the problem with blogging:

1. Malaysia was formed in 16th September, but Sabah and Singapore declared independence (unilaterally) at 31st August, now I wonder what’s the hoo-ha about “you west Malaysian never respect our independence”…?

2. OK, indeed East Malaysia (Sabah and Sarawak) was and is sidelined by west-Malaysia-centric federal government. But hey come on, the constitution has provided 25% of its parliamentary seats for Sabah and Sarawak states, which forced the West Malaysians look totally like a dumbass. I mean, for us, 70~90k voters get represented by 1 wakil rakyat, and for the East Malaysians, it’s about 20k~50k!

3. “The Persekutuan Tanah Melayu […] is and with God’s blessing shall be for ever a sovereign democratic and independent State founded upon the principles of liberty and justice and ever seeking the welfare and happiness of its people and the maintenance of a just peace among all nations.”, now this is the reason for us to celebrate independent day…

4. Anyway, am totally in Madonna mood right now, just because the freaking HMV in city hall was airing her CD’s songs…

5. How much money would you reserve for your jobless period? Planning to go Manado lah… at least SGD1k… =X

6. It seems like it’s getting more and more emo to walk/eat alone… one year ago I wouldn’t really care if I feel alone and lonely… Hmmmmmmmmm…

7. That being said, things are getting confusing, awfully distracting and the door seems to be shaking… Ah well, it’s hard to be me myself, proven yet again…

8. Oh back to 6 OK? I think eating with friends tend to make you overeat! Like a lot of stuff you won’t usually eat when eating alone, you know, stingray, rojak, ice cream etc… yummy but fatty!!!! And it doesn’t help for being a scavenger like me!!!! EEEeeeeekkkkkk~

9. Finishing thesis in time? yeah, it’s getting hard and harder… Camouflage, cryptic… just when I’m writing a thesis on it, I myself am exhibiting such behaviour… =X

10. Been talking and doing a lot more nonsense nowadays, something is wrong with my brain, oh well…

Najib says Malaysia to be symbol of tolerance to world

Errr… hello, dear Hon PM Najib, am I living in a different world than you?

Stop giving feel-good-speech that basically telling the whole world you’re living in a denial already lah…

Malaysia is heading down the road to be symbol of whither economy, democracy and judiciary system (which were once being some most respectable)… Malaysia is soon to be symbol of violence, corruption, ignorance and a failure state to world…

And all you’re doing is keep talking as if Malaysia is going to conquer the world just to make people feel good about you huh? All you’re doing is to sweep all the problems Malaysia’s facing under the carpet. All you’re doing is to let your machai (cabinet members, party leaders) to do and say all the dirty things that you want to do, and then you instead come out and say some nice things acting as if you’re good cop?

藍奕邦 - 自知之明

沒有可愛面孔　不懂嘩眾取寵
未太懂去用言語誇張掩人耳目
一早知道沒那種資格
營造氣氛欺騙觀眾
但那青蛙亦有公主包容

沒有趣緻賣相　只得一對手掌
一邊唱一邊彈　平凡變得漂亮
沒有那個大志去當萬人迷
當了還覺得牽強

沒有想怎麼討好所有人
只知道安守我小小本份
不愛用半句埋怨博取一個憐憫
唯有專心做個知足的人

沒有咋舌技倆　都不必太緊張
醜小鴨跟天鵝　同樣發光發亮
沒有興趣為某君裝扮模樣
堆砌盛世來鋪張

沒有想怎麼討好所有人
只知道安守我小小本份
不愛用半句埋怨博取一個憐憫
從未厭棄過自己身份

就算我知音只一個人
給他去欣賞過仍是有幸
自己都知道還有那一些我沒有
唯有專心做個知足的人

我也不稀罕討好世人
之所以不需多修飾缺陷
不要護蔭更何況我不需要憐憫
從未怕看到這麼逼真

就算我知音只得這鋼琴
都不要緊反正我很開心
自己都知道沒有法子可以完美
唯有安心做個簡單的人

沒法逼你欣賞　給我尖叫鼓掌
但至少我就此發表清楚我立場

Totally resonates well with me…  

A Chinese paper column writer had this great article in Sin Chew on this year’s Merdeka day…

一位喜欢梁静茹的马来司机

Basically he said he was talking to a Malay taxi driver who likes Fish Leong… and of course it turns into discussing race relations…

I like how he talked about race relations here:

真正的种族融洽，不一定要消除种族的特征（包括在表格上），更不需要刻意假装忘记你是马来人，我是华人，他是印度人。我称他为“马来司机”又怎样？真正的种族交融，是我明知道你是异族，但我仍然把你看作我的“自己人”。

It is exactly what I think about race relation, that it doesn’t really mater for me to fill in “Malay”, “Chinese” or “Indian” or whatever on forms and documents, that it doesn’t really matter for people to identify himself/herself as Iban or Kadazan or Orang Asli… What really matters, is we treat each other as ourselves, Malaysians, even if we know that we are of different descendant, practicing different culture and religions…

Of course we do have something to whine about other races, like how a certain race people is lazy, is keras, is whatever… But I believe, we do have something decent to say about other people as well… And right on top of that, we are all human, not swine not whatever cow (well it’s funny people like to call each other pigs, babi)…

I remember there was once I was travelling from Pontian to Muar. Friends and I were “thrown” to another bus half way (saving energy in disguise, i.e. sending passenger from half-full bus to another half-full bus!), we were greeted by this one kind Malay songkok-wearing uncle passenger with sympathy. Well, at least it made me feel less pissed…

And I was seated beside a Malay makcik, who later on asked me if she could borrow my newspaper to “cover” herself from the cold (and un-adjustable) aircond… “Sejuk~~”…

I know I was, and am over interpreting and sensationalizing the encounters… but I clearly see that they are, human and they share the same nationality as me…

How could you call another human an animal?

Anyway back to Fish Leong, there was this another article by Shanon Shah in The Nut Graph (lots and lots of great Malaysian articles) which discussed about recent PAS’s hardline stance…

He went to say that MLTR (Michael Learns to Rock) is the most boring band, and similarly a number of twitters I was following suggested similarly… like “after so many years, Michael still doesn’t know rock”… LOL… I’ll totally go WTF over these comments if I was 10 years younger, but maybe not now…

Shanon Shah then went on saying he does have a “soft spot”, that he likes Celine Dion, and making some friends not-so-respect over him already… LOLx2

It’s funny to see how liking some pop ballad cheesy love songs makes you totally “uncool”, but what the heck,

Fish Leong rocks!!!!!! (not rock as in Micheal Learns to rock OK? )

P/S: Save to say that I’m once again back in Fish’s cheesy ballads mood recently…

Ah hmmm, just thought to write something about the independence day this year, and then I remember I started this blog last year during the merdeka day!

So I went back and read through what I’d written…

Yeah, March 8th Political Tsunami was so 2008, and we’re in 2009… That sweet scent of new Malaysia, that glimpse of hope the groundbreaking general election offered, are probably all dead by now…

Isn’t it funny just last year, people were celebrating Anwar’s return to the parliament, and probably being rather optimistic euphoric about his promise that he will gather enough number of frogs (parliamentarian lah) to jump ship and hence the federal government will change…

Instead, we’d since seen about 7 by elections, a legitimate PR state government being changed with 3 frogs, a state ruler ignoring the state constitution removing the MB by his own pleasure, a speaker of the house being dragged out by police…

We saw how our judiciary system fucked up by appearing partial towards the BN, we saw how police and MACC get away with any punishment or action from beating and assaulting the normal citizens. Someone published nude photo of a state cabinet member, someone fell from MACC building and found death after being detained, someone wore black T-shirt and get arrested…

and it gets more and more depressing… Yasmin Ahmad passed away, 72 deaths from H1N1 (Top 10 country among the world), thousands of custodial death which see no head rolling…

Oh, and the religion tension in the country getting worse! MP who stormed into a forum regarding change of religion did not see any disciplinary action, concerts being protested and called to be banned (Michael’s learn to rock! zOMG!), caning woman under syariah law, and protesting relocation of temple by bringing cow head without police action at all(and the organiser said they got no idea where the cow head comes from)!

Too depressing, that I don’t find any good in celebrating the 2009’s Independence day in whatever cheery mood… To me, it’s the perfect time to readjust and replenish the lost hopes, it’s supposedly the time all Malaysians think, IS THE COUNTRY HEADING TO RIGHT DIRECTION?

When will the Malaysia v2.0 finally come? and if there exists a v2.0, what will it be? Could it be even worse?

Sometimes I think Merdeka day is like some sort of drug… that you’ll have a lot of clips and videos (15Malaysia and the video below…) that trying to install some hope and patriotism into you, so that you are ready to withstand another year of depressing bombardment of truth, the sorry state of the country…

A nation in distress, I’m wearing black, and praying for a better year for the country… as for now, I’ll continue to feel sad, and continue to hope that I could do something… bah, Happy 52nd independence day, Malaysia, Salam Merdeka~

I like the fact that the video tries to present the message, Many faces, many voices… just not the One Malaysia thingy… LOL

Everyone has his/her own ideal Malaysia, and everyone works his/her way to contribute to that ideal Malaysia… I believe it’s the many many many Malaysia that gave us this Malaysia… and what am I talking doesn’t seem to make sense… bah~

Perhaps Marion D’Cruz in “Who wants 1Malaysia?” said it better,

I am not interested in 1Malaysia. I am instead interested in Many Malaysias. I am interested in the idea that it is our diversity that is our strength. Not even unity in diversity. Just diversity and inclusiveness. The idea that we are many stories, many ideas, many possibilities, many bodies, many interpretations, multiplicity — all converging and diverging as well. I am interested in the alternative possibilities, the alternative stories, the alternative histories.

As part of the 15Malaysia project (kick arse, it’s basically similar to last year’s Malaysian Artiste for unity), the late ( :’( ) Yasmin Ahmad left us with the short film, Chocolate.

And the making of the short film… made by Pete Teo “in loving memory with Yasmin Ahmad”.

It really takes a while to start understanding (in my own way) what the short film is about… and then you’ll keep thinking about it… keep thinking, then keep watching… and more interpretations come out… and the funny thing is, I really got no idea how to write out what I feel and what I think the film wants to tell…

The front nagging part is strangely (actually, to Malaysian who go Singapore for study, not strange lah) familiar… Not that my mum nagged to me like this before… but the content of the nagging… ahhhhh

I like what she said in the making… Why obliterate hope? Enough of that already… Yeah, vaguely remember there was once talking to my brother about how a TV series ended with a open-and-not-that-happy ending… I was like saying, well this shows some reality mah, always happy ending like very cheesy… and he replied, well you watch movie or TV because you want to live in an imaginary world aren’t you? And shouldn’t this imaginary world be a happy one? If you want reality just go out and watch the world!

Hah!

Thank you Yasmin, can’t stop being emotional when watching these clips… Maybe it’s because this is your last piece of work left on earth…   But yeah, at least you left us with your films…

1. Kick arse tune…

The song is a “remake version” (??? I don’t know the correct term lah) of Hoppiholla, funny isn’t it?

Was blog hopping and happen to hear this song, and got to know Chicane, great music.

2. If I’m a witness, I’ll at least google and check through the meaning of ultra vires, or the personal details of the respondent Karpal Singh. As an attorney, I would provide some readings for the witness, to prepare for the questions in cross examination by the defence counsels…

Am I smart? Am I smart? No lah… they are all bodoh only… “You jangan act macam ultra vires! I sue you sedition then you know!”

Read howsy’s take on the sedition charge, and the meaning of Latin law terms here…

3. And LADY GAGA ROCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!! Such a great performer, such a great vocal… Somehow the records are all a bit unsatisfying now because the live version was way better!

SGD 88 for a sloped-downward packed-sardin standing, 1.5 hours of waiting/delaying, 70~80 minutes of performance with no one shouted encore… If it wasn’t Lady Gaga and her great performance… It’s really a bit expensive eh… =.=

Written this as a reply to some people who thought they are morally superior than others, who said that drinking will lead to road accidents and wife beating etc. These people think that since they don’t drink, then the f*king world should not too. They say it’s preventive, I say it’s f*king moral guarding, which is almost the same as banning hand-holding in public because it will lead to pre-marriage sex which leads to AIDS…

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Do you know that driving leads to car accident?

Do you know that smoking leads to lung cancer, mouth cavity cancer?

Or maybe we go a bit further, do you know that asking someone to go to church or mosque will increase the chance of road kill?

It’s about civil liberty, and the rule of law.

There’s no law stating that one can not sell beers (unless it’s duty unpaid beers).

It is also fundamental right for a human to do something, as long as that something is within the boundary of law…

I’m very interested in the research that clearly showed the correlation between drinking and road kill, wife beating and etc. Not that I know of any because I don’t bother to go google… LOL

I’m as a drinker never thought of beating anyone, or drive my car around killing people, Why and who are you to think that I’ll drink and become a killer next minute?

And why and who are you to think that I can’t control myself from drinking?

We have laws to send those who can’t control themselves after drinking and committed crime thereafter into the jail, so why do you need to ban me from drinking? And does it help to ban selling alcohol in certain places, if I’m already can’t control myself from drinking?

Banning alcohol is a totally "religious" idea that try to impose certain moral values onto everyone. Banning alcohol is to assume that every citizen is stupid and not-Allah-fearing that they can’t control themselves. The truth is those who can’t control themselves will do their best in trying to get their hands on alcohols, while those "modest" drinkers will lose their liberty in drinking.

Just one more thing, does banning drug work? It seems like the drug abuse cases are increasing over the years in Malaysia.

Ban sex so that no one gets AIDS please. Since some factions are against the use of condom (which does not protect one from AIDS if not used properly!).

The more you know, the more you do not know, and it makes you want to know more…

Bah, anyway, last week was a dramatic week. For the first time in my teaching life, I’d got to deal with a group of students that was having infighting…

Funny how a SOCIAL IDIOT who failed his own crisis and conflict management has to “facilitate” the students to deal with the issues… =X  Challenging indeed, but I did henceforth learn more (a little bit more only, I still sux… ) about this kind of things, and what to do or say when other people are having problems… It is perhaps really important to talk with the person you are having problem with, say the problem out loud and fix it as soon as possible… Hmmm, if only I really could do it, haha~

But sometimes I always ask myself, was it me that my students are having all these infightings? Was it me that my students are not doing well up to my expectation? Did I somehow somewhere sometime do something wrong that result in something like this happened? Maybe I shouldn’t have done this and that and that and this… Maybe I shouldn’t…

Somehow the responsibility in teaching is so HUGE that it makes me wonder if I’d done justice to the student, if the student gets what they want. As a person who is very bothered by what people think about me, I can’t help but wonder what does the student think about me. Will it be something like “such a sohai”, or “oh shyt, he sucks”?! Ouch…

No wonder I don’t quite fancy teaching…